May 20th. Day 65.
I first want to say Happy Birthday to my best friend who would have been 44 today. I found a funny email exchange we had with each other back when we both first had our babies and had zero clue as to what we were doing. DOES THIS THING COME WITH AN OWNER'S MANUAL?
I'M SURPRISED EVERYONE KNOWS MY NAME! - BIG E
Um, I'm not. You are no wallflower, my child.
I felt such relief that this event was giving us all the closure we so strongly desired. The relief. The grief. The love. The enormity of everything, I was choking back tears. But I lost my composure when we saw his third grade teacher, a woman who he dearly loves and would easily go and live with if that were a legitimate option.